It's lovely out today. I think. I've sat inside and done literally nothing!
I've been feeling a bit worn out recently, especially this last fortnight. A mixture of failing at job interviews and getting behind (then having to catch up on) work for teaching. I had a ridiculous amount of marking to get through, which I just managed, and I don't even want to think about all the stuff I should be doing for my course outside of the classroom. Not to mention the jobs I'm not applying for!
Weirdly I've not been eating during the day. I don't really know why, I just somehow got into the habit since Easter. It's not a weight thing, I'm not even losing weight (my metabolism is pretty stubborn, no matter which way I try to nudge it. I don't care too much about that stuff but I know it'd probably be unhealthy for me to lose much weight). Anyway, I'd been feeling fine but I think it's all caught up with me over the weekend and I'm bit ill and subdued.
I was at university on Friday. It was great to catch up. Even though I always come away feeling like I haven't had the chance to say as much to everyone as I'd have liked, and a bit upset with myself for being so shy and strange, it's really valuable to remember that everyone else is having similar ups and downs. Oh, except I found out the student who is at my old school with my old mentor has broken down in tears in the English office...I don't blame her, poor thing! Our tutor suggested we go out to the the big square across the road after tutorial and we enjoyed the Sun and grass and spring blossoms. Everyone but me got stuck into treats and booze. Then I left to go and get some magical looking silk I'd seen when I was buying some much more practical fabric for a dress I'm attempting.
Anyway, I just started this journal to talk about the fact that I always mean to be writing these days, and doing so much else too, but can't quite. I always seem to be waiting for....I'm not sure. Till I get certain things done? Till I sort out what I need to do, in what order? Till I get a moment to take stock? I've started a piece of original fiction on another site and I also want to finish my most recent Severus thing. Hopefully I'll sort myself out soon enough! xx
Mood: Want to curl up under duvet but it's finally warm
Listening to: Ragged Trousered Philanthropists on Librivox
Reading: The Islandman, Thomas O'Chrohan
Watching: The progression of spring all around me.
Playing: chicken with all my deadlines.
Drinking: Fizzy water and lemon.